Week 15

I feel like maybe this week has been the most 'normal' one for Jonathan and I in quite awhile. It's been a slow week, no traveling, no sickness and lots of time spent at our home just being together. I didn't realize how much I needed that until now. With our pregnancy, driving to Alabama for a wedding, spending a week in Tennessee and trying to recover from three (I think?) different viruses + morning sickness things have gotten let go at our house. Even Sadie hasn't gotten the attention she's used to from us...poor pup. 

BUT like I said, this week we've been able to do normal things. Things like, wash dishes, sleep in, mop floors, wipe down bathrooms and take showers in our own house (we've had water pipe issues....bleh). And let me tell you, just doing the mundane, everyday things has felt so good.

*prego update*

I don't want to complain about some of the issues being pregnant because, all in all, I truly think that so far it's been mostly manageable. Uncomfortable and frustrating? Yes. But from my observation I've had an easy go of it compared to a lot of mama's I know out there. My heart goes out to anyone who has had or is having major sickness, I know it's hard and I'm so sorry. To be honest, my 'pregnancy symptoms' haven't been unbearable. The changes to my body have just made me feel pretty icky and really tired. But I'm even feeling like some of those things are improving. For instance, today I got up before Jonathan and made breakfast. Sure, it was just frying eggs and heating up frozen sausage but it  was a huge improvement because most mornings I've been too sick to hardly move. Jonathan (that sweet, patient, understanding man) has had to do everything for me. 

I do want to be clear after writing all that up there about the 'hard parts' of pregnancy that I'm so excited to be a mom now. It's weird and wonderful all at once and I'd go through all of it again to experience the blessing and privilege growing this child inside of me. I wouldn't trade that for the world and I know it's all worth it :)

So to sum up, these days I'm staying in bed more, wearing a lot of pajama pants and my hair is usually in messy bun. Beautiful, no? ;)

As I was getting ready to write out this post in our cozy bedroom, the sun was setting rose-pink on the bark of the bare trees. It painted the white mounded snow drifts soft hues of red and the world seemed to breathe easy for a bit. We've had harsh temperatures and bad weather these past few weeks. After a string of bitter-grey days, a warm sunset can feel like relief. That's what this week has been...relief, in various forms. And I couldn't be more thankful. 

Praise You, Jesus. 

I'll end this post with another little letter for the babe. Thanks for reading so far and catching up with us. You're just the best really and I'm so glad you stopped by! 

Dear Pickle, 

Your dad took some pictures of me and you the other day. I feel like I can't stop looking at them. Sometimes I see myself and think I look strange. Because of you, my body looks very different than it did 15 weeks ago. But the way you're rounding and curving out my tummy as you grow...it's beautiful. 

I think possibly I'm starting to feel you move inside. It makes my heart jump when I do because I feel almost like you're trying to show me yourself. As if you're a tiny little Who from Whoville. "I am here! I am here! I am here!". (By the way, that's a good book that I can't wait to read to you later.)

I love that, for now, me and you and your Dad can all snuggle up safely at night together. He likes to hold you and me close while we all fall asleep and sometimes I think I couldn't be more happy than when he does that. I can't wait for you to meet him. He's going to be the perfect dad for you, I just know it.

We're so excited to meet you. To get to know who you are. To watch you become  who you were created to be. We pray over you and love you already. And oh! how we thank God for choosing us to be your parents. You are our most precious gift.

Love, 

Dad & Mom.